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Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self — always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.

Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.

Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.

Idealists are rare, making up between 20 and 25 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

The Four types of Idealists are:

Healers (INFP) | Counselors (INFJ) | Champions (ENFP) | Teachers (ENFJ)

Do you realise,.. there are some little moments.. That really makes u wonder.. or it captured in your heart that you will never forget.

There is one day, I went to this shopping centre in orchard. I was just hanged around and wanted to buy some cakes for fun.

There is this little old lady, She was pretty old.. yet she looked so excited.. asking things to the shop lady in chinese.. 

Being the kaypoh ninin, I was curious why was this lady was so energetic.. then i realised that she was trying on the different types of mooncakes since mooncakes festival is coming.

Then it reminded me of another story.. still the story of an old lady. She was my friend’s mother. They both came to Singapore for the first time and I felt that it was my responsibility to make them happy and explore Singapore.

I tried hard to let them try many things ‘authenticly’ made in Singapore that they can hardly get it in Indonesia (not as authentic as in Singapore). I asked her son to eat Burger King or MOS burger, I tried to pursuade her to eat something else and just tapao (takeaway) the Bachang. But she refused and she only wanted to eat bachang. 

Then it makes me wonder…. will I be like that in my old times?? Will I still be adventorous in trying to experience and eat and learn many different things? What makes me excited when I’m old. Will I still be excited over films? Will I still love designing clothes? What kind of clothes will I wear? Will I still wear Eyeliner, mascara. high heels???

have u ever wonder?

I am different

Will you accept me just the way I am?

I dun blame anyone For the difference that I have

I am just the same as you

Need love and understanding

Do not give me up

I am here and trying

To understand more things

I am just the same as you

Have fears and feelings

Seeking happiness And avoiding tears

Hope you understand

From: Jams Student

Wow… haha.. it’s an attractive title isn’t it.. hehehe..

Yesterday.. after listening to the sermon of the mount by the great Dr Kong Hee, I realize about one thing.. isnt it sometimes we all say some convinient answer for some troublesome questions just to end the conversation?

And we claim that ‘that’ convinient answer is an ok answer, coz its truly meet

ur

expectation. And of course the answer is bring goodwill to

ur

name. Or bring u to a safe position where u can hide in.

But yesterday i felt rebuked by God! and reminded me of my lil tiny white lies, that I don’t even realize that I have lied for the past almost 3 years!

Holiness is for whole!

not only for a major thing! but truly for the whole thing

Lies followed by lies! until u cant recognise the lies

U all know that I studied in

Australia

before, and I came back after i finish my diploma, which I suppose to continue until bachelor degree. Before I came back, I have this tremendous fear of what people might say of me. I’ve always been discriminated as the youngest Indonesian child who’s rich (although actually I’m not) and spoilt by her parents because of my personality (the way I speak, the stuff that I talk).

So I have this tremendous fear all over me!!! for being told as ’spoilt’ kid! who only knows how to play and shop, waste money. Although after prayed, I know exactly that I was called to go home!. And also to pursue my dream! I felt its ridiculous for me to answer the truth if people ask me question ‘Y do u come back?, isn’t it such a waste?’. So I’ve always been answering all those questions with simple answer, ‘coz I want to accompany my parents (That is the answer for me for my friends in Indo)

Before I continue, let me tell u my background. I was born again as a Christian in

Perth

Australia

, with all the help and encouragement from all the Christian fellow friends there. I’ll never forget all of their kindness and patient on me. I really appreciate their love and encouragement and hope in me. I actually love

Perth

so much, although I was a lil lonely there.

When I came back to

Indonesia

from

Australia

, I was so disappointed by some people that I truly love and trust as my friends (in church). So when I came to

Singapore

, every time I have a new friend that was introduced to me, I will always say that I don’t like

Perth

… It’s such a boring city where I can get no where to hang out to. Well, in some part its real… the city is a bit boring, but I love it. I talked as if I was really hate to be there and as if that those beloved friends are truly gone in my memory. Weirdly although the friends are different persons.. but every time I remember

Perth

, it reminds me of my church, and reminds me of those particular people that I was disappointed with.

God spoke to me in a loving way, He said ‘Why have u not acknowledge my work in you in

Perth

?’.

One sentence explained all.

I broke to tears, felt so stupid!. I keep on lyin for such a simple truth I need to face!.

I was really sorry to God, and I will call again those friends in

Perth

that truly mean a lot to me in a near future.

Learn from me! Remember always, there is nothing meaningful when u refuse to accept and face the truth!.

I really thank God for His grace and blessing upon my life.

Well, I just moved back again to my old house whre I stayed in Singapore for the first time.

I am so glad coz althou a little more ex than usual but it is the most settled place where I can stay. Its not only about the place, but about the people as well. Ive been moving around many places.. Never been settled. hopefully this is the house where God really wants me to stay in. I feel that through the environment of this place, I will have a lot of inspirations and beautiful thoughts.

I really love stayin in the city.

lookin at people walking their life.

Like in the morning, I still remember I wrote a short love story in coffeebean, outdoor cafe with sound of birds chirping around.

I love my life.

I feel so FULL lately in my life. God’s grace is truly enough and abundant in our life.

I have problems.. even I do not know what to do about it, But God knows.. So the best thing to do, is to do what I can do.. and letting God and believing God to do what I cannot do!.

The trick of living a good life, is to be victorious in the battle  of our mind.

(Philippians 4:8 NLT).Think about things that are pure and lovely and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.

eventhough u dont feel to think about it, just give a shot or second or third shot!

I’ve been struggling in my first 3 weeks of my works, I feel that am very lousy in my job, there are times when I loose my esteem. But its truly the time when I truly can rely fully on God.

The job that I am in, require me to do things which I naturally having difficulties to involve in. like "arrange in papers", "checking list!" "checking numbers, code, excel sheet" etc etc…

wuffffff,…………….

I cant even arrange my room!!!! u ask me to arrange those stufffff

but I think is the trap of God to change me!

I have tried many times, but the improvement was just vr small.

I did have a thought to give up, thinking I have to do that for the rest of 1 - 2 years. But God has put me in this place, I really want to know What is God’s plan for me in this place.

His grace is truly abundant,

God is truly my rest, When I am down, I alw hear the voice "I am with you, I will never leave you, nor forsake you".

And the most beautiful thing is this. If u know my past or Ninin in the past, I am very easy to flow with negative low esteem thoughts. But this time around, although I know this is gonna be hard, devil will keep on pulling me down, God’s grace will alw enough and running over on me. On my way home in my bus, I can feel peace and happiness in my heart, I can smile and think about Jams students, my family, my friends, Jesus and many more.

I know without the work of our Father’s hands, I won’t be able to feel and be that way. I really thank Him for that.

bottom line

Thank You Jesus

As I was thinking of the world again… about the life of the suffering..

Sometimes people are bias for the rich and the intelligent; people think that they are so lucky to be prosperous etc. I know that prosperous makes our life easier, and poverty makes life difficult. But the foundation of people searching for prosperity is happiness. And the true primary value of life is happiness.

As for me, although my students (the down syndromes) understand less than others, they were happy like a child. Sometimes they were sad, but their ignorant makes them forget about their problems. This is what I am here for.

To bring happiness for others.

Happiness is something people can’t buy through their prosperity.

I rather be poor and humble than rich but arrogant. I know it sounds cliche etc.. "don’t u want to be richhh???". I know its hard to be happy without money, but love is more than anything to me.

Some people just don’t deserve to be prosperous. 

I’ve been hurt and despised by many arrogant people. Thank God, I experienced this. I won’t be like them.

I know I can’t save the world, but at least I do things to the best extent I can.

am so amazed by those like SUN HO and JOLIE, when am rich, i’ll do the same thing as they do.

Don’t take too long to say I love you to

the one to love

coz time has the habit of sleeping away

out of the blue blue sky

when lightning strike on a sunny day

just take me in

and keep me from the rain

and the words that seems so hard to say

come out when you’ve gone away

just stay a little while and hear me say..

that I want you hear tonite

that I need you by my side

would just one more moment

would just one more moment..

with you…

turn away to say good bye

to each and every word that passes by

like a distant memory

and time keep sleepin away

and time will turn to grey

and time will be the one who holds you down..

and the words that seems so hard to say

come out when you’ve gone away

just stay a little while and hear me say..

that I want you hear tonite

that I need you by my side

would just one more moment

would just one more moment..

with you…

sometimes time will treat you bad

before you even know what’s wrong

and in the end

it hits u hard,

please tell me you’ll be strong

By: Sun Ho with love

Dedicated for dearest friends who has cancer health problem.

One day, in my miserable mind of thinking about the world. I questioned God about everything. What’s happening and Why. My room flooded with tears as am thinking about my students and others in suffer. As I hear the voice of God in my heart, My body was stiff but my tears still flowed.

" It isn’t my choice, ninin.. I have given the world for you and your fellow human friends, since the beginning of the earth. Do you think I want to see them suffer? I cried even worse than you my dear, I know the whole story, and I know the whole of their hearts. The beauty of race that I created in the beginning, the wonderful purpose that I had.. I couldn’t see it now, it is far different that what it suppose to be. But what I have said to all of you, I cant take it back, To give the world to all of you, to fill and subdue it. You are the one who have the key for a difference, you are the controller, I am the guide. When you cried out to me, I have cried out to you too.. I cried out to you to follow my words as I say, and not to the others. Be still and know that I am God, have your Trust in me" 

It’s been a great day..

Today I watched a play called ‘Watching the clouds go by’ by NUS theatre studies. I thank God for a new friend who has the same interest with me, usually vr difficult for me to find a friend to watch play in Singapore.

Its a true story about a group of youth during cultural revolution who are obssessed ambition for a new China with ideology and fire in their soul, their mind and their heart.  Until one day, one girl of the group has lost her human basic instinct of love and affection.

She thought she has lost it, but deep inside her, there was still a call and a knock, begging her quietly to let them be function back. The denial of having a human heart is what makes her depress.

The play was a very simple play, not much attribute with simple clothing and setting. But it was nice and beautiful. The music played by three instruments: Er-hu (I love it!!!!), Piano (electric) and percussion (indonesia = tambur).

I love the narrative dialogue, they made my minds fade away. haha.. ^ ^

next week will be the starting week of my work.. ^ ^ .. I won’t have much time to play anymore. But I truly thank God for a great 2 weeks I have before resume to work. Many things I have learnt, and He never leave me alone. He always besides me.

I’ll be talkin about the miracles God bring to me last month, so… stay tune..

Ninin

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